Yesterday I felt so good, still scared, but positive. I told myself I was going to just enjoy the next week and pretend like I'm pregnant and everything is normal.
Yeah Right.
My one and only symptom, sore boobs, is completely gone. Doesn't matter that it all faded Tuesday night before we even got beta #2's results. It just doesn't feel right. I know it's probably all in my head and means absolutely nothing, but it worries me. Of course I consulted Dr. Google and according to him it's completely normal for symptoms to come and go. The part that bothers me is they're no longer coming, all they did was go.
Why is that people who've been through infertility think they'll jinx themselves if they tell anyone? I'm sure the two have absolutely no connection. I told a couple of people at work. (I work remotely, so I never see any of these people, but I have a couple of "instant messaging" friendships and since they new I was cycling I told them) Now I'm completely sure I jinxed myself.
I surprised myself with my reluctance to comment on other people's blogs. I never understood why other people said they were uncomfortable with this. But as a "technically" pregnant person, I don't want to upset them by commenting on their posts and I feel like I have zero right to give my opinion.
Tomorrow I will probably be positive. I hope so, cause it's way more fun.
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I fall in the category of thinking that I will jinx it if I tell people. I think it's all mind games we play on ourselves.
I think people will still like comments from you because you have been through IF and can relate. Just because you are pregnant doesn't make your journey to get there any less. If anything, it should give them hope.
Have a great weekend!
I am saying BIG prayers for you girl! You are so deserving and have a ton of people sending good vibes out there for you! Everybody needs a little hope to keep them moving forward. . . kind of fitting that YOU are Hope!
Hope....I will def be thinking of you and your hubs over the next few days/weeks to come....With my current pregnancy I did not have many prego symptoms....No sore boobs....no sickness....no nothing....then around 7wks I started to get some of those symptoms but then at 9wks they all left and I worried but everything is still OK....Sometimes as IF'ers we just look way into things....For me I had to take things day by day....step by step in the beginning...Because when you have experience multiple losses thats all you can do and just pray this baby is Gods will and meant to be...Sending Peace and Happiness your way...Hugs Kristi